Before, I was never the life of the party. I was the reliable one. The one no one had to worry about. The one no one had to think about. I was the one that everyone could ignore.
Until that night, when everything changed and I finally became someone.
Someone Carson might actually care about, as much as I cared about him.
But the cost of being someone is more than anyone can imagine. For every moment, there’s a price to pay. For every party. For every choice made. For every kiss.
Ultimately, living a life of PURE ECSTASY might be no different from not living at all
I wish this book had been better. It had such an amazingly perfect plot, and I so desperately wanted to see this book show someone spiral into a really dark place. Problem books can be so mesmerizing, but this one was just... not good.
I feel like in a way this book was supposed to show the dangers of ecstasy/MDMA, but that only happened at the end. The majority of the book was just the main character taking loads of drugs and getting involved with the wrong crowd and making mistakes and then writing in her diary about how she regrets it. She's supposed to be this good girl, but peer pressure gets to her and she falls into this hole and that could have been the point where they showed the regret, but all the way through, when she makes these crappy mistakes and she says 'oh I regret it' and she does it all over again?
It just seemed to me that this book was not acting as a deterrent from drugs, but rather as an advocate. The main character is so happy and makes it sound so amazing, and sure, some bad things happen right right right at the end, but until then it just comes across more as a "YAY DRUGS ARE GREAT" message to me.
Also, I so did not like the way this was written in diary style. It was so immature and the character sounded more like a 12 year old on MSN back in the day than a modern day teenager. I just could not get my head around it and I couldn't relate.
Overall Rating: E
Book released 2nd June 2015 by Simon Pulse
Book received from the publisher in exchange for an honest review